Reality

Last Thursday morning Matt took an additional month off of work so we could figure things out about our future and to wait on the job he had applied for. That afternoon he was notified that he did not get the job. We were devastated. All our dreams and plans were completely crushed. It would have been a promotion and a great location, closer to my family. A week later I would like to tell you that we are fine and have accepted this, but I can't. We are still in limbo, trying to make decisions and it is so incredibly hard.

 

How do you let go of a dream that was so incredible to accept a reality that looks less than good?

 

I think it starts to get easier as you realize that God has you exactly where He wants you to be. We are completely dependent upon Him for our next move. Matt had also applied for a job here in Charlotte that would be a lateral move, but we are still waiting to hear if he will get it. If not, it still looks like we will end up in Charlotte, at the demoted job and wherever they want him to be in the office. So, for those of you who were praying that we would land back in Charlotte, I want to stab you with my pencil. However, I won't, because no matter what I know we will end up exactly where God wants us to be.

So, here is what we do know:

God is still on the throne and this did not take Him by surprise.

We will be making a fresh start here, most likely a different part of Charlotte.

We head back to our retreat in TN late Monday, and will be there until next week, we come back so Kayla can get braces on March 1. This is where are plans end...we can't plan beyond this not knowing what is going to happen with Matt's job.

We are still waiting to hear from the dentist when Elijah will have his 4 teeth extracted.

Matt's start back to work date is set for March 21st, but once we hear which job he will end up in we will probably change that and go back earlier.

We are ready to be settled and not popping back and forth from state to state.

We are ready to be living in our own place without having to pull clothes out of the suitcase every day.

We are trying to create a new dream and be excited about what is going on with us.

It's hard.

We will survive this disappointment.

I am swamped in school work which is why I have not updated the blog recently.

We are still happy to be back in the states and the kids are enjoying playing outside.

This planner is learning even more to wait on the Lord and not make as many plans.

We thought we would be closer to settled by now.

I recently won a book and I am looking forward to that arriving in the mail.

God is good all the time, all the time God is good.

 

Keep praying for us, pray that Matt gets the lateral job, pray that I get to feeling better as I have major sinus pressure and don't feel good. Pray that we are able to get settled soon as the kids are still struggling with not being settled. You all are awesome and I thank God that you are a part of our lives (even those who prayed us back to Charlotte!!).