Shattered

I have been in a horrible funk all week and haven't been able to shake it. I feel like I am wooden, wound really tight. On the other hand, I feel very fragile, like glass. The tension keeps mounting and more and more gets piled on. If I am not careful, I truly feel like I am going to shatter.

 

This morning as I was getting ready for Church the song "Carry Me" by Josh Wilson came on and it brought me to tears, one part really expresses how I feel:

 

I'm at the end of myself
I know I've got nothing left
Feels like I'm stuck in the valley of the shadow of death
And I've been down here so long
I just can't find my way out
Oh God I don't stand a chance
Unless You carry me now
God carry me now

I played the song several times over, really listening to the words and asking God to carry me. I know he does, but when you are in the valley, it is sometimes really hard to see God. I know I am not the only one in the valley right now, I've got a lot of people right down there with me. If you are currently not in a valley, will you pray for those that are? And, if you are in a valley, pray for God to soften your heart and notice the others in the valley with you and lift them up in prayer??

 

The whole song:

I try to catch my breath
It hasn't happened yet
I'm wide awake in the middle of the night scared to death
So I prayed God, would You make this stop
Father please hold on to me, You're all I've got

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Jesus calm my heart
Come near me please
Lord don't let these worries get the best of me
Oh I believe, that You're still here with me
Cause You meant what You said when You said You'd never leave

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Carry me
God carry me
Carry me
God carry me

I'm at the end of myself
I know I've got nothing left
Feels like I'm stuck in the valley of the shadow of death
And I've been down here so long
I just can't find my way out
Oh God I don't stand a chance
Unless You carry me now
God carry me now

Carry me, carry me, carry me now
From my sinking sand to Your solid ground
The only way I'm ever gonna make it out
Is if You carry me, carry me, carry me now
God carry me, carry me, carry me now

Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now
Carry me now

 

If you prefer to hear it...and I recommend you do listen to it:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CCzW0VlFbgU