Unbelief

As I was doing my devotions this morning several things I was reading really resonated with me. It's an area where I struggle...get it under control...then struggle again. 

I am sure you can relate. 

The first thought that really captured my attention was from Warren Wiersbe, "While it's normal for us to hope for a quick way of escape and important for us to understand our feelings and circumstances, it's far more important to look to God and ask for His help."(emphasis mine)

I have to admit that this stepped on my toes a bit. I chewed on that thought for a few minutes as I have things I want God to fix right away (hello, genie in the bottle?), but at times I forget to look to God and actually ask for His help...I'd rather complain about the problem than go to the one Who could fix it...anybody else struggle with that?!

Anyway, I moved on and kept going when a few minutes later the second thought hit hard, "Unbelief almost always underestimates God and magnifies our personal weakness and problems. Unbelief sees only giants, problems, impossibility and obstacles. Unbelief leaves God out of the equation and never acts or stands firm on the truth of God's Word."-Krista Williams

Ouch...that one stepped harder on my toes and putting these two thoughts together I really felt like there was a huge finger pointing right at me. 

Are their areas of your life that you are only seeing giants and impossibilities? Do the obstacles seem bigger than you are? I hear you. I find myself saying a lot recently, concerning one thing in particular that "I just don't understand how it's going to happen."

Can I just tell you that I am doubting in that area and FORGETTING to stand firm on the truth of God's word! Philippians 4:13 tells me that "I can do ALL things through Christ who strengthens me." IF God wants this situation to happen then He will make it happen. If it doesn't happen then that means that God does not want that particular thing for me in this season of my life. It does not mean that He doesn't care or He did not answer my prayer. 

It means that His will is greater than my wants!

I want to be like like the father in Mark whose son was possessed by an impure spirit who said "I do believe; Lord, help me overcome my unbelief!" (Mark 9:24)

There is a song by FFH  called "Daniel" that started going through my head this morning and it says:

I want to be like Daniel in the Lion's den

Waiting for God's love to save him

I wanna be, I wanna be,

I want to be like Moses when he raised his hands

And all the winds and seas obeyed him

I wanna be, I wanna be

When  I need to drink from that living cup

When I need to fight but I give up

When I need to feel God more and more

I'm reminded of the ones who were here before

I don't know about you, but I want to be like Daniel who was facing impossible odds, but trusted God anyway. I want to be like Moses who was also facing impossible odds but trusted God despite impossible odds. I believe I am more like Jonah who was stubborn and headstrong, running from God first, before trusting that God's way is in fact the right way, and then obeying and trusting God.

What obstacles are you facing today? What giants are standing in your way? Who do you want to be? One who lets unbelief and giants hurl you into the pit of despair? Or one who acknowledges that those giants and struggles are big and real, but my God is BIGGER?

There are many things we will never understand this side of heaven, but can I encourage you that if you trust in the one true God, He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will provide all you need, not all you want. His ways are not our ways.

Weeds

For Mother's Day this year I gave my mother-in-law a coupon for 3 hours of our time to do whatever she needed done around her house. I was thinking cleaning the inside of the house or organizing or something like that. Never did I dream that she would ask me to help with weeding her flower gardens. I was like are you sure? You sure you don't want me to help clean out your closet or SOMETHING?! Anything other than pull the weeds? But, she wanted help with her weeds. So, the kids and I went and spent time helping her weed her flower gardens. When we left her house I was exhausted, but felt I had done a pretty good job.

When I pulled into my driveway I was STUNNED. When did I get weeds in MY flower garden?? How did I not notice?! I swear they must have all grown in while I was at my mother-in-laws house! However, since I know that is impossible, I will say that it must have happened and I was so busy with the other things going on in my life that I never noticed until I took the time out to weed someone else's garden. So of course it's been eating at me to get out there and take care of my weeds.

Sin is like that too. It roots in and festers before we ever notice that it's there...and if we are not careful it will start choking out the life in us. It starts out as one little weed or one little sin, but before you know it there are so many weeds you don't know where it started or where you should begin to pull them out.

One thing I noticed as I started pulling my weeds is that one weed  looked pretty innocent...but the longer I examined it and tried to find the root, I realized it had multiple roots...6 in fact. Sin is like this too. It starts out as one little sin...then before you know it, it has taken over different parts of your life. You find it hard to realize where it started and where and when it is going to end. I would encourage you to find the roots and start there. You may not even realize you are in sin...until you start pointing out someone else's...and then you hear that little voice saying what about that little lie you told? Or when you yelled at your kids, or spouse or parents? What about when you sat there gossiping? Or what about what you were just looking at on the computer? Or the way you looked at your co-worker? Or the bitterness you are holding onto because things have not turned out how you thought they should? Or when you...???

Some roots are so deep that you need extra help getting them out. I found that there were some roots that I had to take the spade after, and even then it was difficult to get it out. Some sins are so deep that we need to spend time in prayer, trying to figure out where it came from. We may need to go apologize to someone or confess what we have done.

I want to be like David who said "Create in my a pure heart, O God, and renew a steadfast spirit within me (Psalm 51:10)."

1 John 1:9 says, "If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just and will forgive us our sins and purify us from all unrighteousness."

What weeds are growing in your garden?

What do you need to take time to clean out today?